It seems fitting for my first EVER blog post to be about our drive to be perfect. Or perhaps rather my drive...because you see I had this website ready to publish and release for about 4 months. I would nit pick and fix and update until I finally had to throw my arms up in surrender and just release the damn thing. I began to realize that if I wanted to wait until this was all perfectly designed and laid out, I would never hit the publish button.
Now, if you have found a way to not care if everything you do reaches your highest expectations then please teach me your ways! It has been incredibly difficult to let go of this desire to be 'perfect' in my actions and decisions. Perfect, for me, means to have everyone (including myself) around me happy and pleased with everything I do, all the time...that't not too much to ask is it?!
My biggest lesson in perfection came when I graduated yoga teacher training. When I first began teaching yoga, this need caused me a lot of grief. I beat myself up when I didn't teach everything I planned or missed a pose on one side or went over time. Small mistakes in the grand scheme of things but at that time of feeling so nervous and unsure of myself, these hiccups felt like complete failures. I left my first 20 classes convinced I would never teach another yoga class every again...yet somehow would always decide to try it one last time. It felt like the most impossible task as a teacher to lead a large group of people who varied in age, physical health, yoga experience, musical taste and overall expectations. How was it even possible?
I can honestly say it took about two years into my teaching to begin to learn what now seems such a simple lesson: you can not please everybody. In fact, trying to please everybody may be the quickest way to exhaust yourself or go completely insane. When you have students from all walks of life in the room, trying to give each and every one of them the 'perfect' class would require some sort of magical spell. But as I settled into my skin as a teacher, something started becoming very clear. When I walked into a room thinking I had to prove something or be perfect, everything would fall apart; my instruction made no sense and my planned sequence flew out the window. But when I walked in with a simple focus and just acted like myself, everything seemed to land into place.
It sounds so simple! Just be yourself, be authentic. That's the answer to everything! This revelation has without a doubt been the hardest and most valuable lesson of my life.
But this realization didn't stop at teaching yoga. The need for perfection shows up and challenges me in every aspect of my life. I am still working on letting go of my need to please everyone and do everything. But as you slowly let these expectations crumble, what is left is a vast amount of space for growth. It leaves space to step into your truth and empowers you to find confidence in your thoughts, words and actions.
Find the strength to embrace your so called 'imperfections' as they actually make up who you are. They make you special and beautiful and rare. No one in the world has these exact same imperfections. Being yourself frees you from the need to impress or fool others or wear any sort of disguise. There is far more joy to be found living your truth. Be authentic in everything you do and give yourself a break! Being perfect would be an awfully boring way to live!
So here's to allowing ourselves to be exactly who we are.
Here's to the joy and bliss we find living our truth.
Here's to not holding back.
This is my life through the yoga lens. Join me in my lessons, journeys across the ocean, dancing with a wild heart, eating with a happy belly and flowing down this blissful path.